I’ve been thinking long and hard about my future for a few months now but didn’t think of sharing my thoughts until I saw THIS post by Simbongile (we met on the set of an indie film about a year ago) and remembered that there’s actually a lot I have not been sharing which defeats the purpose (bandwidth and domain parking) of this blog.
Like Simbongile, I am also nearing the completion of my undergrad studies, but unlike her, I have already been thrust into the world of being an adult as I started working full time at the beginning of the year. It still amazes me how I (barely) manage to juggle everything that I do.
Working for someone has emphasised one of the points that Simbongile raises in her blog for me as well. I do not want to work for someone else. I harbour no bad emotions towards those who choose to, but I realise more and more each day that it is just not for me. Dilemma number one is that I have now gotten used to my salary and letting it go for my own ventures, which may or may not succeed, is quite scary – not to mention my parents’ disapproval if they were to find out that I’m planning on being my own boss.
So here I am at a crossroads. I am about to finish studying (I do intend on going further later on) and I am strongly considering resigning the security of my job/salary with no safety net to cushion the blow if that is what it comes to.
There are so many other things that I need to consider as well. Where am I going to live now that I am no longer res material? Who am I going to share a flat with since I cannot afford to rent a flat on my own? Will my savings keep me afloat until at least one of my business ventures start paying off?
The contrast with me and Simbongile is that she is not worried and somewhat excited about the uncertainty of the future. I am the complete opposite. I am shit scared. I am scared out of my mind.